So what could she do about it?
She didnt have a clue. She didnt know anything about immortals or shattered souls or the spirit world. Sure, shed died, but shed also un-died. And she didnt remember her soul going anywhere. Trapped . . . Itd been black and cold and soundless, and Id wanted to scream and scream and . . . Stevie Rae shuddered, clamping down on her thoughts. She didnt remember much of that terrible, dead timeshe didnt want to. But she did know someone who understood a lot about immortals, especially Kalona, and the spirit world. According to Zs grandma, Rephaim hadnt been anything but a spirit until Neferet had set loose his gross daddy.
Rephaim will know somethin. And what he knows, Im gonna know, she said resolutely, her fingers tightening on the steering wheel.
If she had to, Stevie Rae would use the power of their Imprint, the power of her element, and every bit of power inside her body to get information from him. Ignoring the sick, terrible, guilty way it made her feel to think of fighting Rephaim, she gave the Bug more gas and turned down Gilcrease Road.
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She didnt have to wonder where shed find him. Stevie Rae just knew. The front door to the old mansion had already been forced open, and she slipped inside the dark, cold house, following his invisible trail up and up. She didnt need to see the balcony door ajar to know he was outside. She knew he was there. Ill always know where he is, she thought gloomily.
He didnt turn to face her right away, and she was glad. Stevie Rae needed the time to try to get used to the sight of him again.
So, you came, he said, still without facing her.
That voicethat human voice. It struck her again, as it had the first night shed heard it.
You called me, she said, trying to keep her voice cooltrying to hold on to the anger she felt at what his horrible daddy had caused.
He turned to face her, and their eyes met.
He looks exhausted, was her first thought. His arms bleeding again.
She is still in pain, was his first thought. And she is filled with anger. They stared at each other silently, neither willing to speak their thoughts aloud.
What has happened? he finally asked.
How do you know somethings happened? she snapped back at him.
He hesitated before speaking, obviously choosing his words carefully. I know from you.
Youre not makin any sense, Rephaim. The sound of her voice speaking his name seemed to echo in the air around them, and the night was suddenly tinted with the memory of the glistening red mist that had been sent by the son of an immortal to caress Stevie Raes skin and call her to him.
That is because it does not make sense to me, he said, his voice deep and soft and hesitant. I know nothing about how an Imprint works; you will have to teach me.
Stevie Rae felt her cheeks get warm. Hes telling the truth, she realized. Our Imprint lets him know things about me! And how could he understand it? I barely do.
She cleared her throat. So, are you sayin you know somethings happened because you can sense it from me?
Feel, not sense, he corrected her. I felt your pain. Not like before, right after you drank from me. Then your body was in pain. Your pain tonight was emotional, not physical.
She couldnt stop staring at him, her shock clear on her face. Yes, it was. It still is.
Tell me what has happened.
Instead of answering him, she asked, Why did you call me here?
You were feeling pain. I could feel it, too. He paused, obviously disconcerted by what he was saying, and then continued, I wanted to stop feeling it. So I sent you strength and called you to me.
How did you do it? What was that red misty stuff?
Answer my question, and I will answer yours.
Fine. What has happened is your daddy killed Heath, the human guy who was Zoeys consort. Zoey saw him do it and couldnt stop him, and that shattered her soul.
Rephaim continued to stare at her until it felt to Stevie Rae as if he was looking through her body and directly into her soul. She couldnt look away, though, and the longer their gazes met, the harder it was for her to hold on to her anger. His eyes were just so human. Only their color was off, and to Stevie Rae, the scarlet within them wasnt as alien as it should be. Truthfully, it was frighteningly familiar; it had once tinted her own eyes.
Dont you have anything to say about that? she blurted, pulling her gaze from his so that she was staring out at the empty night.
There is more. What is it you arent telling me?
Gathering her anger back to her, Stevie Rae met his gaze again. Word has it your daddys soul is shattered, too.
Rephaim blinked, shock clear in his blood-colored eyes. I dont believe that, he said.
Neither do I, but Neferets dumped his spiritless body on the High Council, and apparently theyre buying the story. You know what I think? She didnt wait for him to respond, but went on, her voice rising with her frustration and anger and fear. I think Kalonas followed Zoey into the Otherworld because hes totally obsessed with her. Stevie Rae wiped at her cheeks, brushing off the tears she thought shed finished shedding.
That is impossible. Rephaim sounded almost as upset as she felt. My father cannot return to the Otherworld. The realm has been eternally forbidden to him.
Well, obviously he figured out a way to get around being forbidden.
A way to get around having been eternally banished by the Goddess of Night herself? How could that be accomplished?
Nyx kicked him out of the Otherworld? Stevie Rae said.
It was my fathers choice. He was once Nyxs Warrior. Their Oath Bond was broken when he fell.
Ohmygoodness, Kalona used to be on Nyxs side? Without consciously knowing she was doing so, Stevie Rae moved closer to Rephaim.
Yes. He guarded her against Darkness. Rephaim stared out at the night.
What happened? Why did he fall?
Father never speaks of it. I know whatever it was filled him with an anger that burned for centuries.
And thats how you were created. From that anger.
His gaze found her again. Yes.
Does it fill you, too? That anger and darkness? she couldnt stop herself from asking.
Wouldnt you know if it did? Just as I know your pain? Is that not how this Imprint between us works?
Well, its complicated. See, youve been kinda forced into the role of my consort since Im the vampyre here and all. And its easier for a consort to sense things about their vampyre than the other way around. What I get from you is
My power, he broke in. She didnt think he sounded mad, just tired and almost hopeless. You get my immortal strength.
Holy crap! Thats why I healed so dang fast.
Yes, and why I dont.
Stevie Rae blinked in surprise. Well, shoot. You must feel awfulyou look pretty bad.
He made a noise that was somewhere between a laugh and a snort. And you look healthy and whole again.
I am healthy, but I wont be really whole until I figure out how to help Zoey. Shes my best friend, Rephaim. She cant die.
He is my father. He cant die, either.
They stared at one another, both struggling to make sense of this thing between them that drew them together even as hurt and pain and anger swirled around them, defining and separating their worlds.
How about this: we get you something to eat. I fix that wing again, which wont be fun for either of us, and then we try to figure out whats going on with Zoey and your daddy. You should know some-thin, though. I cant feel your emotions like you can feel mine, but I can tell if youre lyin to me. I am also pretty sure I could find you, no matter where you are. So if you lie to me and set up Zoey, I give you my word that I will come against you with all the power of my element and your blood.
I will not lie to you, he said.
Good. Lets go inside the museum and find the kitchen.
Stevie Rae left the rooftop balcony, and the Raven Mocker followed her as if tethered to the High Priestess by an invisible but unbreakable chain.
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You could have anything in this world you desired with that power, Rephaim said between bites of the huge sandwich shed fixed him from the stuff that hadnt already gone bad in the industrial refrigerators of the museums restaurant.
Nah, not really. I mean, sure, I can make one tired, overworked, and kinda dorky night security guard let us into the museum and then forget we ever existed; but I cant, like, rule the world or anything crazy like that.
It is an excellent power to wield.
No, its a responsibility I didnt ask for and really dont want. See, I dont want to be able to make humans do whatever the heck I want them to do. Its just not rightnot if Im on Nyxs side.
Because your Goddess does not believe in giving her subjects the objects of their desire?
Stevie Rae stared at him for a while, twirling a curl around and around her finger before answering, thinking that he might be messin with her, but the red gaze that met hers was completely serious. So she took a deep breath, and explained, Not because of that, but because Nyx believes in giving everyone free choice, and when I mess with a humans mind and implant stuff that he has no control over, Im takin away his free choice. Thats just not right.
Do you really believe everyone in the world should have free choice?
I do. Thats why Im here today, talkin to you. Zoey gave that back to me. Then in a kinda pay-it-forward thing, I gave that same gift to you.
You let me live hoping that I would choose my own path and not that of my father.
Stevie Rae was surprised that he had said it so freely; but she didnt question what had prompted his honesty, she just went with it. Yeah. I told you that when I closed the tunnel behind you and let you go instead of turning you in to my friends. Youre in charge of your life now. Youre not beholden to your daddy or anyone else. She paused for a second and then said the rest in a big rush. And youve already started down a different path by saving me on that rooftop.
An unpaid life debt is a dangerous thing to carry. It was only logical that I repaid the debt that was between us.
Yeah, I get that, but what about tonight?
Tonight?
You sent me your strength and called me to you. If you have that kind of power, why didnt you just break our Imprint instead? That would have ended your pain, too.
He stopped eating, and his scarlet gaze locked with hers. Dont make me into something Im not. I have spent centuries in darkness. I lived with evil as my bedfellow. I am tied to my father. He is filled with an anger that might very well burn up this world, and if he returns, I am destined to be at his side. See me as I am, Stevie Rae. I am a nightmare creature given life through anger and rape. I walk among the living, but Im ever separate, ever different. Not immortal, not man, and not beast.
Stevie Rae let his words sink into her veins. She knew he was being completely, nakedly honest with her. But there was more to him than this machine of anger and evil hed been created to be. She knew it because shed been witness to it.
Well, Rephaim, how bout you just consider that you might be right.
She saw the understanding register in his blood-colored eyes. Which means I might also be wrong?
She shrugged. Im just sayin.
Without speaking, he shook his head and went back to eating. She smiled and continued to make herself a turkey sandwich. So, she said, slapping mustard on white bread. Whats your theory about why your daddys souls turned up missing?
His gaze locked with hers, and the one word he uttered made her blood run cold.
Neferet.
Chapter 7
Stevie Rae
Dallas told me Neferet dumped Kalonas spiritless body on the High Council.
Who is Dallas? Rephaim asked.
Just a guy I know. So it looks like Neferet turned in Kalona even though theyre supposed to be together and all.
Neferet seduces my father and pretends to be his mate, but the only thing she really cares for is herself. Where he is filled with anger, she is filled with hatred. Hatred is a more dangerous ally.
So youre sure Neferet would betray Kalona to save herself? Stevie Rae asked.
I am certain Neferet would betray anyone to save herself.
What does she gain by turning in Kalona, especially if hes all soulless and stuff?
By giving him over to the High Council, she takes suspicion from herself, he said.
Yeah, that makes sense. I know she wants Zoey dead. And she doesnt care about Heath at all. Actually, Neferet would be cool with the fact that seeing Kalona about to kill Heath made Zoey throw the power of spirit at him and that not being able to stop Kalona caused her soul to shatter. Apparently, thats just a half step away from death.
Rephaims eyes were suddenly sharp on hers. Zoey attacked my father with the element spirit?
Yeah, thats what Lenobia and Dragon told me.
Then he has been gravely wounded. Rephaim looked away and didnt say anything else.
Hey, you need to tell me what you know, Stevie Rae said earnestly. When he didnt speak, she sighed, and continued, Okay, heres my truth. I came here tonight ready to force you to talk to me about your daddy and the Otherworld and all that; but now that Im here and actually talkin to you, I dont want to force you. Hesitantly, she touched his arm. His body jerked when her fingers met his skin, but he didnt pull away. Cant we work together on this? Do you really want Zoey dead?
His eyes found hers again. I have no reason to wish your friends death, but you do wish my father harm.
Stevie Rae blew out a breath of frustration. How about thishow about I compromise in what I want. What if I told you I just want Kalona to leave all of us alone?
I dont know if that could ever be possible, Rephaim said.
But it is possible for me to wish it. Right now, Zoey and Kalona are soulless. Now, I know your daddys an immortal, but it cant be a good thing that his bodys just a shell.