Eclipse - Стефани Майер

Stephenie MeyerEclipse

PREFACE

ALL OUR ATTEMPTS AT SUBTERFUGE HAD BEEN IN VAIN.

With ice in my heart, I watched him prepare to defend me. His intense concentration betrayed no hint of doubt, though he was outnumbered. I knew that we could expect no helpat this moment, his family was fighting for their lives just as surely as he was for ours.

Would I ever learn the outcome of that other fight? Find out who the winners and the losers were? Would I live long enough for that? 

The odds of that didnt look so great. 

Black eyes, wild with their fierce craving for my death, watched for the moment when my protectors attention would be diverted. The moment when I would surely die.

Somewhere, far, far away in the cold forest, a wolf howled.

1 ULTIMATUM

Bella,

I dont know why youre making Charlie carry notes to Billy like were in second gradeif I wanted to talk to you I would answer the

You made the choice here, okay? You cant have it both ways when

What part of mortal enemies is too complicated for you to

Look, I know Im being a jerk, but theres just no way around

We cant be friends when youre spending all your time with a bunch of

It just makes it worse when I think about you too much, so dont write anymore

Yeah, I miss you, too. A lot. Doesnt change anything. Sorry.

Jacob

I ran my fingers across the page, feeling the dents where he had pressed the pen to the paper so hard that it had nearly broken through. I could picture him writing thisscrawling the angry letters in his rough handwriting, slashing through line after line when the words came out wrong, maybe even snapping the pen in his too-big hand; that would explain the ink splatters. I could imagine the frustration pulling his black eyebrows together and crumpling his forehead. If Id been there, I might have laughed. Dont give yourself a brain hemorrhage, Jacob, I would have told him. Just spit it out.

Laughing was the last thing I felt like doing now as I reread the words Id already memorized. His answer to my pleading notepassed from Charlie to Billy to him, just like second grade, as hed pointed outwas no surprise. Id known the essence of what it would say before Id opened it.

What was surprising was how much each crossed-out line wounded meas if the points of the letters had cutting edges. More than that, behind each angry beginning lurked a vast pool of hurt; Jacobs pain cut me deeper than my own.

While I was pondering this, I caught the unmistakable scent of a smoking burner rising from the kitchen. In another house, the fact that someone besides myself was cooking might not be a cause for panicking.

I shoved the wrinkled paper into my back pocket and ran, making it downstairs in the nick of time.

The jar of spaghetti sauce Charlied stuck in the microwave was only on its first revolution when I yanked the door open and pulled it out.

What did I do wrong? Charlie demanded.

Youre supposed to take the lid off first, Dad. Metals bad for microwaves. I swiftly removed the lid as I spoke, poured half the sauce into a bowl, and then put the bowl inside the microwave and the jar back in the fridge; I fixed the time and pressed start.

Charlie watched my adjustments with pursed lips. Did I get the noodles right?

I looked in the pan on the stovethe source of the smell that had alerted me. Stirring helps, I said mildly. I found a spoon and tried to de-clump the mushy hunk that was scalded to the bottom.

Charlie sighed.

So whats all this about? I asked him.

He folded his arms across his chest and glared out the back windows into the sheeting rain. Dont know what youre talking about, he grumbled.

I was mystified. Charlie cooking? And what was with the surly attitude? Edward wasnt here yet; usually my dad reserved this kind of behavior for my boyfriends benefit, doing his best to illustrate the theme of unwelcome with every word and posture. Charlies efforts were unnecessaryEdward knew exactly what my dad was thinking without the show.

The word boyfriend had me chewing on the inside of my cheek with a familiar tension while I stirred. It wasnt the right word, not at all. I needed something more expressive of eternal commitment. . . . But words like destiny and fate sounded hokey when you used them in casual conversation.

Edward had another word in mind, and that word was the source of the tension I felt. It put my teeth on edge just to think it to myself.

Fiancée. Ugh. I shuddered away from the thought.

Did I miss something? Since when do you make dinner? I asked Charlie. The pasta lump bobbed in the boiling water as I poked it. Or try to make dinner, I should say.

Charlie shrugged. Theres no law that says I cant cook in my own house.

You would know, I replied, grinning as I eyed the badge pinned to his leather jacket.

Ha. Good one. He shrugged out of the jacket as if my glance had reminded him he still had it on, and hung it on the peg reserved for his gear. His gun belt was already slung in placehe hadnt felt the need to wear that to the station for a few weeks. There had been no more disturbing disappearances to trouble the small town of Forks, Washington, no more sightings of the giant, mysterious wolves in the ever-rainy woods. . . .

I prodded the noodles in silence, guessing that Charlie would get around to talking about whatever was bothering him in his own time. My dad was not a man of many words, and the effort he had put into trying to orchestrate a sit-down dinner with me made it clear there were an uncharacteristic number of words on his mind.

I glanced at the clock routinelysomething I did every few minutes around this time. Less than a half hour to go now.

Afternoons were the hardest part of my day. Ever since my former best friend (and werewolf), Jacob Black, had informed on me about the motorcycle Id been riding on the slya betrayal he had devised in order to get me grounded so that I couldnt spend time with my boyfriend (and vampire), Edward CullenEdward had been allowed to see me only from seven till nine-thirty p.m., always inside the confines of my home and under the supervision of my dads unfailingly crabby glare.

This was an escalation from the previous, slightly less stringent grounding that Id earned for an unexplained three-day disappearance and one episode of cliff diving.

Of course, I still saw Edward at school, because there wasnt anything Charlie could do about that. And then, Edward spent almost every night in my room, too, but Charlie wasnt precisely aware of that. Edwards ability to climb easily and silently through my second-story window was almost as useful as his ability to read Charlies mind.

Though the afternoon was the only time I spent away from Edward, it was enough to make me restless, and the hours always dragged. Still, I endured my punishment without complaining becausefor one thingI knew Id earned it, andfor anotherbecause I couldnt bear to hurt my dad by moving out now, when a much more permanent separation hovered, invisible to Charlie, so close on my horizon.

My dad sat down at the table with a grunt and unfolded the damp newspaper there; within seconds he was clucking his tongue in disapproval.

I dont know why you read the news, Dad. It only ticks you off.

He ignored me, grumbling at the paper in his hands. This is why everyone wants to live in a small town! Ridiculous.

What have big cities done wrong now?

Seattles making a run for murder capital of the country. Five unsolved homicides in the last two weeks. Can you imagine living like that?

I think Phoenix is actually higher up the homicide list, Dad. I have lived like that. And Id never come close to being a murder victim until after I moved to his safe little town. In fact, I was still on several hit lists. . . . The spoon shook in my hands, making the water tremble.

Well, you couldnt pay me enough, Charlie said.

I gave up on saving dinner and settled for serving it; I had to use a steak knife to cut a portion of spaghetti for Charlie and then myself, while he watched with a sheepish expression. Charlie coated his helping with sauce and dug in. I disguised my own clump as well as I could and followed his example without much enthusiasm. We ate in silence for a moment. Charlie was still scanning the news, so I picked up my much-abused copy of Wuthering Heights from where Id left it this morning at breakfast, and tried to lose myself in turn-of-the-century England while I waited for him to start talking.

I was just to the part where Heathcliff returns when Charlie cleared his throat and threw the paper to the floor.

Youre right, Charlie said. I did have a reason for doing this. He waved his fork at the gluey spread. I wanted to talk to you.

I laid the book aside; the binding was so destroyed that it slumped flat to the table. You could have just asked.

He nodded, his eyebrows pulling together. Yeah. Ill remember that next time. I thought taking dinner off your hands would soften you up.

I laughed. It workedyour cooking skills have me soft as a marshmallow. What do you need, Dad?

Well, its about Jacob.

I felt my face harden. What about him? I asked through stiff lips.

Easy, Bells. I know youre still upset that he told on you, but it was the right thing. He was being responsible.

Responsible, I repeated scathingly, rolling my eyes. Right. So, what about Jacob?

The careless question repeated inside my head, anything but trivial. What about Jacob? What was I going to do about him? My former best friend who was now . . . what? My enemy? I cringed.

Charlies face was suddenly wary. Dont get mad at me, okay?

Mad?

Well, its about Edward, too.

My eyes narrowed.

Charlies voice got gruffer. I let him in the house, dont I?

You do, I admitted. For brief periods of time. Of course, you might let me out of the house for brief periods now and then, too, I continuedonly jokingly; I knew I was on lockdown for the duration of the school year. Ive been pretty good lately.

Well, thats kind of where I was heading with this. . . . And then Charlies face stretched into an unexpected eye-crinkling grin; for a second he looked twenty years younger.

I saw a dim glimmer of possibility in that smile, but I proceeded slowly. Im confused, Dad. Are we talking about Jacob, or Edward, or me being grounded?

The grin flashed again. Sort of all three.

And how do they relate? I asked, cautious.

Okay. He sighed, raising his hands as if in surrender. So Im thinking maybe you deserve a parole for good behavior. For a teenager, youre amazingly non-whiney.

My voice and eyebrows shot up. Seriously? Im free?

Where was this coming from? Id been positive I would be under house arrest until I actually moved out, and Edward hadnt picked up any wavering in Charlies thoughts. . . .

Charlie held up one finger. Conditionally.

The enthusiasm vanished. Fantastic, I groaned.

Bella, this is more of a request than a demand, okay? Youre free. But Im hoping youll use that freedom . . . judiciously.

What does that mean?

He sighed again. I know youre satisfied to spend all of your time with Edward

I spend time with Alice, too, I interjected. Edwards sister had no hours of visitation; she came and went as she pleased. Charlie was putty in her capable hands.

Thats true, he said. But you have other friends besides the Cullens, Bella. Or you used to.

We stared at each other for a long moment.

When was the last time you spoke to Angela Weber? he threw at me.

Friday at lunch, I answered immediately.

Before Edwards return, my school friends had polarized into two groups. I liked to think of those groups as good vs. evil. Us and them worked, too. The good guys were Angela, her steady boyfriend Ben Cheney, and Mike Newton; these three had all very generously forgiven me for going crazy when Edward left. Lauren Mallory was the evil core of the them side, and almost everyone else, including my first friend in Forks, Jessica Stanley, seemed content to go along with her anti-Bella agenda.

With Edward back at school, the dividing line had become even more distinct.

Edwards return had taken its toll on Mikes friendship, but Angela was unswervingly loyal, and Ben followed her lead. Despite the natural aversion most humans felt toward the Cullens, Angela sat dutifully beside Alice every day at lunch. After a few weeks, Angela even looked comfortable there. It was difficult not to be charmed by the Cullensonce one gave them the chance to be charming.

Outside of school? Charlie asked, calling my attention back.

I havent seen anyone outside of school, Dad. Grounded, remember? And Angela has a boyfriend, too. Shes always with Ben. If Im really free, I added, heavy on the skepticism, maybe we could double.

Okay. But then . . . He hesitated. You and Jake used to be joined at the hip, and now

I cut him off. Can you get to the point, Dad? Whats your conditionexactly?

I dont think you should dump all your other friends for your boyfriend, Bella, he said in a stern voice. Its not nice, and I think your life would be better balanced if you kept some other people in it. What happened last September . . .

I flinched.