"I haven't any."
"Any deviltry?"
"Any outlet."
"You ought to have."
"Ought I?"
"Certainly. You are as full of restless energy as I am."
"Oh, I don't think I am."
"You are. Look at yourself! I never saw anybody so sound, so superbly healthy, so"he laughed"adapted to dynamics. You've got to have an outlet. Or there'll be the deuce to pay."
She looked at her fruit salad gravely, tasted it, and glanced up at him:
"I have never in all my life had any outletnever even any outlook, Mr. Neville."
"You should have had both," he grumbled, annoyed at himself for the interest her words had for him; uneasy, now that she had responded, yet curious to learn something about this fair young girl, approximately his intellectual equal, who came to his door looking for work as a model. He thought to himself that probably it was some distressing tale which he couldn't help, and the recital of which would do neither of them any good. Of stories of models' lives he was tired, satiated. There was no use encouraging her to family revelations; an easy, pleasant footing was far more amusing to maintain. The other hinted of intimacy; and that he had never tolerated in his employees.
Yet, looking now across the table at her, a not unkind curiosity began to prod him. He could easily have left matters where they were, maintained the status quo indefinitelyor as long as he needed her services.
"Outlets are necessary," he said, cautiously. "Otherwise we go to the bow-wows."
"Ordie."
"What?" sharply.
She looked up without a trace of self-consciousness or the least hint of the dramatic:
"I would die unless I had an outlet. This is almost one. At least it gives me something to do with my life."
"Posing?"
"Yes."
"I don't quite understand you."
"Why, I only mean thatthe other"she smiled"what you call the bow-wows, would not have been an outlet for me. I was a show-girl for two months last winter; I ought to know. And I'd rather have died than"
"I see," he said; "that outlet was too stupid to have attracted you."
She nodded. "Besides, I have principles," she said, candidly.
"Which effectually blocked that outlet. They sometimes kill, too, as you say. Youth stifled too long means deaththe death of youth at least. Outlets mean life. The idea is to find a safe one."
She flushed in quick, sensitive response:
"That is it; that is what I meant. Mr. Neville, I am twenty-one; and do you know I never had a childhood? And I am simply wild for itfor the girlhood and the playtime that I never had"
She checked herself, looking across at him uncertainly.
"Go on," he nodded.
"That is all."
"No; tell me the rest."
She sat with head bent, slender fingers picking at her napkin; then, without raising her troubled eyes:
"Life has beencurious. My mother was bedridden. My childhood and girlhood were passed caring for her. That is all I ever did untila year ago," she added, her voice falling so low he could scarcely hear her.
"She died, then?"
"A year ago last February."
"You went to school. You must have made friends there."
"I went to a public school for a year. After that mother taught me."
"She must have been extremely cultivated."
The girl nodded, looking absently at the cloth. Then, glancing up:
"I wonder whether you will understand me when I tell you why I decided to ask employment of artists."
"I'll try to," he said, smiling.
"It was an intense desire to be among cultivated peopleif only for a few hours. Besides, I had read about artists; and their lives seemed so young, so gay, so worth livingplease don't think me foolish and immature, Mr. Nevillebut I was so stifled, so cut off from such people, so uninspired, soso starved for a little gaietyand I needed youthful companionshipsurroundings where people of my own age and intelligence sometimes enteredand I had never had it"
She looked at him with a strained, wistful expression as though begging him to understand her:
"I couldn't remain at the theatre," she said. "I had little talentno chance except chances I would not tolerate; no companionship except what I was unfitted for by education and inclination. The men wereimpossible. There may have been girls I could have likedbut I did not meet them. So, as I had to do somethingand my years of seclusion with mother had unfitted me for any businessfor office work or shop workI thought that artists might care to employ memight give meor let me seebe nearsomething of the gayer, brighter, more pleasant and youthful side of life"
She ceased, bent her head thoughtfully.
"You wantfriends? Young oneswith intellects? You want to combine these with a chance of making a decent living?"
"Yes." She looked up candidly: "I am simply starved for it. You must believe that when you see what I have submitted togone through with in your studio"she blushed vividly"in aa desperate attempt to escape thethe loneliness, the silence and isolation"she raised her dark eyes"the isolation of the poor," she said. "You don't know what that means."
After a moment she added, level-eyed: "For which there is supposed to be but one outletif a girl is attractive."
He rose, walked to and fro for a few moments, then, halting:
"All memory of the initial terror and distress and uncertainty aside, have you not enjoyed this morning, Miss West?"
"Yes, Ihave. Iyou have no idea what it has meant to me."
"It has given you an outlook, anyway."
"Yes. OnlyI'm terrified at the idea of going through it againwith another man"
He laughed, and she tried to, saying:
"But if all artists are as kind and considerate"
"Plenty of 'em are more so. There are a few bounders, a moderate number of beasts. You'll find them everywhere in the world from the purlieus to the pulpit. I'm going to make a contract with you. After that, regretfully, I'll see that you meet the men who will be valuable to you. I wish there was some way I could box you up in a jeweller's case so that nobody else could have you and I could find you when I needed you!"
She laughed shyly, extended her slim white hand for him to support her while she mounted to her eyrie. Then, erect, delicately flushed, she let the robe fall from her and stood looking down at him in silence.
CHAPTER II
Spring came unusually early that year. By the first of the month a few willows and thorn bushes in the Park had turned green; then, in a single day, the entire Park became lovely with golden bell-flowers, and the first mowing machine clinked over the greenswards leaving a fragrance of clipped verdure in its wake.
Under a characteristic blue sky April unfolded its myriad leaves beneath which robins ran over shaven lawns and purple grackle bustled busily about, and the water fowl quacked and whistled and rushed through the water nipping and chasing one another or, sidling alongside, began that nodding, bowing, bobbing acquaintance preliminary to aquatic courtship.
Many of the wild birds had mated; many were mating; amorous caterwauling on back fences made night an inferno; pigeons cooed and bubbled and made endless nuisances of themselves all day long.
In lofts, offices, and shops youthful faces, whitened by the winter's pallour, appeared at open windows gazing into the blue above, or, with, pretty, inscrutable eyes, studied the passing throng till the lifted eyes of youth below completed the occult circuit with a smile.
And the spring sunshine grew hot, and sprinkling carts appeared, and the metropolis moulted its overcoats, and the derby became a burden, and the annual spring exhibition of the National Academy of Design remained uncrowded.