"Every sort. All you can give. All you can give."
He looked at her wearily; his face had become pallid again; the dark hollows of dissipation showed like bruises.
"I don't understand," he said. "I'm no good, you know that. I'm done in, finished. I couldn't help you with your work if I wanted to. There's nothing left of me. I am not to be depended on."
And suddenly, in his eyes of a boy, his self-hatred was revealed to her in one savage gleam.
"No good," he muttered feverishly, "not to be trustedno will-power left. It was in me, I suppose, to become the drunkard I am"
"You are NOT!" cried the girl fiercely. "Don't say it!"
"Why not? I am!"
"You can fight your way free!" His laugh frightened her.
"Fight? I've done that. They tried to pump me that way, tootried to break mebreak my brain to piecesby stopping my liquor. I suppose they thought I might really go insane, as they gave it back after a whileafter a few centuries in helland tried to make me talk by other methods
"Don't, please." She turned her head swiftly, unable to control her quivering face.
"Why not?"
"I can't bear it."
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to shock you."
"I know." She sat for a while with head averted; and presently spoke, sitting so:
"We'll fight it, anyway," she said.
"What do you mean?"
"If you'll let me"
After a silence she turned and looked at him. He stammered, very red:
"I don't quite know why you speak to me so."
She herself was not entirely clear on that point, either. After all, her business with this man was to use him in the service of her Government."
"What is THE GREAT SECRET?" she asked calmly.
After a long while he said, lying there very still: "So you have even heard about that."
"I have heard about it; that is all."
"Do you know what it is?"
"All I know about it is that there is such a thingsomething known to certain Germans, and by them spoken of as THE GREAT SECRET. I imagine, of course, that it is some vital military secret which they desire to guard."
"Is that all you know about it?"
"No, not all." She looked at him gravely out of very clear, honest eyes:
"I know, also, that the Berlin Government has ordered its agents to discover your whereabouts, and to'silence' you."
He gazed at her quite blandly for a moment, then, to her amazement, he laughedsuch a clear, untroubled, boyish laugh that her constrained expression softened in sympathy.
"Do you think that Berlin doesn't mean it?" she asked, brightening a little.
"Mean it? Oh, I'm jolly sure Berlin means it!"
"Then why"
"Why do I laugh?"
"Wellyes. Why do you? It does not strike me as very humorous."
At that he laughed againlaughed so whole-heartedly, so delightfully, that the winning smile curved her own lips once more.
"Would you tell me why you laugh?" she inquired.
"I don't know. It seems so funnythose Huns, those Boches, already smeared from hair to feet with bloodpausing in their wholesale butchery to devise a plan to murder ME!"
His face altered; he raised himself on one elbow:
"The swine have turned all Europe into a bloody wallow. They're belly-deep in itKaiser and knecht! But that's only part of it. They're destroying souls by millions! Mine is already damned."
Miss Erith sprang to her feet: "I tell you not to say such a thing!" she cried, exasperated. "You're as young as I am! Besides, souls are not slain by murder. If they perish it's suicide, ALWAYS!"
She began to pace the white room nervously, flinging open her fur coat as she turned and came straight back to his bed again. Standing there and looking down at him she said:
"We've got to fight it out. The country needs you. It's your bit and you've got to do it. There's a cure for alcoholismDr. Langford's cure. Are you afraid because you think it may hurt?"
He lay looking up at her with hell's own glimmer in his eyes again:
"You don't know what you're talking about," he said. "You talk of cures, and I tell you that I'm half dead for a drink right now! And I'm going to get up and dress and get it!"
The expression of his features and his voice and words appalled her, left her dumb for an instant. Then she said breathlessly:
"You won't do that!"
"Yes I will."
"No."
"Why not?" he demanded excitedly.
"You owe me something."
"What I said was conventional. I'm NOT grateful to you for saving the sort of life mine is!"
"I was not thinking of your life."
After a moment he said more quietly: "I know what you mean. Yes, I am grateful. Our Government ought to know."
"Then tell me, now."
"You know," he said brutally, "I have only your word that you are what you say you are."
She reddened but replied calmly: "That is true. Let me show you my credentials."
From her muff she drew a packet, opened it, and laid the contents on the bedspread under his eyes. Then she walked to the window and stood there with her back turned looking out at the falling snow.
After a few minutes he called her. She went back to the bedside, replaced the packet in her muff, and stood waiting in silence.
He lay looking up at her very quietly and his bruised young features had lost their hard, sullen expression.
"I'd better tell you all I know," he said, "because there is really no hope of curing me you don't understand my will-power is gone. The trouble is with my mind itself. I don't want to be cured. I WANT what's killing me. I want it now, always, all the time. So before anything happens to me I'd better tell you what I know so that our Government can make the proper investigation. Because what I shall tell you is partly a surmise. I leave it to you to judgeto our Government."
She drew from her muff a little pad and a pencil and seated herself on the chair beside him.
"I'll speak slowly," he began, but she shook her head, saying that she was an expert stenographer. So he went on:
"You know my nameKay McKay. I was born here and educated at Yale. But my father was Scotch and he died in Scotland. My mother had been dead many years. They lived on a property called Isla which belonged to my grandfather. After my father's death my grandfather allowed me an income, and when I had graduated from Yale I continued here taking various post-graduate courses. Finally I went to Cornell and studied agriculture, game breeding and forestrydesiring some day to have a place of my own.
"In 1914 I went to Germany to study their system of forestry. In July of that year I went to Switzerland and roamed about in the vagabond way I likeonce liked." His visage altered and he cast a side glance at the girl beside him, but her eyes were fixed on her pad.
He drew a deep breath, like a sigh:
"In that corner of Switzerland which is thrust westward between Germany and France there are a lot of hills and mountains which were unfamiliar to me. The flora resembled that of the Vosgesso did the bird and insect life except on the higher mountains.
"There is a mountain called Mount Terrible. I camped on it. There was some snow. You know what happens sometimes in summer on the higher peaks. Well, it happened to methe whole snow field slid when I was part way across itand I thought it was all offnever dreamed a man could live through that sort of thingwith the sheer gneiss ledges below!
"It was not a big avalanchenot the terrific thundering sortrather an easy slipping, I fancybut it was a devilish thing to lie aboard, and, of course, if there had been precipices where I slid" He shrugged.
The girl looked up from her shorthand manuscript; he seemed to be dreamily living over in his mind those moments on Mount Terrible. Presently he smiled slightly: